The movies make being married to a soldier look so romantic. but here is a short list of what they dont show....
Waiting for a phone call that never comes
Finding that one hidden dirty shirt 2 months after he leaves and cuddling up with it just to smell him
sleepless nights
the worrying
the nightmares
sitting in his car crying cuz its the last place you were alone together
the checking skype and facebook to see if any of the other guys at the fob are on cuz if they are you no hes at least alive
randomly breaking down in tears for no reason
reading and rereading all his texts left on your phone
the panic when there is an unexpected knock at the door
the gut wrenching feeling when you see those white buses
panicing when your cell dies and you dont have a charger
refusing to move his shoes from the end of the bed cuz you want it to feel like hes ther
going to weddings without a date and watching everyone dance and kiss
the list goes on and on but still with all this pain and sadness i wouldnt trade it for anything
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