Hard hit

The last week or so has been a very emotional. We lost a guy. This has been hard all around. Trying to help my soldier cope from so far away is hard. I attended the memorial here on post. I held it together for most of it. But the first shot was a bullet to the heart really driving home some hard truths. The thought that it could be anyone of my friends or even my husband next. That there is a real possibility that he could not return home to me. My 24th birthday is soon to come. I am not sure if i want to celebrate or ignore it till my love returns home on r&r in a few short weeks.