Like any army wife I fear deployment. I fall to my knees in tears uncontrollably without warning. There is one thing I focus on and look forward to when it gets hard. Homecoming. This in its self was made for the movies. When the nightmares wake  me and i cant stop shaking I close my eyes and picture standing there waiting then the joy of seeing him in front of me.  I picture the amazing kiss and the happiness of having him home, it always works for cheering me up